A Violent Mind

Good sir, could you show me the way to happiness?
Good sir, could you give me mental peace?
Good sir, what’s that? You said no?
I wish all the no’s in life would cease

You can never get what you want
The good sir’s aren’t good enough
Your soul is being severed
Life is getting tough

You sit there only watching
The world spinning wildly round
You can’t reach out and touch them
You mind is not so sound

It’s so very maddening
This craziness you cannot touch
You try so hard to make a difference
It doesn’t do very much

You struggle against the forces
Pushing on your mind
You move on toward the future
You never look behind

You’re lying in the wild
Watching the never changing stars
You become one with them
Briefly you know who you are

We must abandon all worldliness
To find out what we are
We must do the simple things
Try counting every star

No one can show you the way
You need to find for yourself
You can put away your greediness
On that forgotten shelf

You make it sound so easy
But really it’s so hard
The bad thoughts push down on you
There’s no hopefulness, not even a shard

The sad things make you dizzy
The good things make you sick
The cut’s supposed to clot
But the blood is running thick

The veins stick out under your skin
Water’s a thing of the past
Your bones are sticking out
Lack of food makes weight come off fast

Your mind’s a venus fly trap
How easy you get stuck
No one will come save you
Your mind clogs with unwanted muck

Your vision gets all blurry
You rock yourself to best
The evil thoughts that haunt you
You make a safety nest

You cry and scream and claw
At the serpent on your breast
It just squeezes tighter
Your heart beats in your chest

The panic is attacking now
You don’t know what to do
These thoughts give you hallucinations
The said your mind cannot kill you

Good sir, what has happened to me?
Why did you let me die?
Good sir, you are not so good
You didn’t even try

- Alisha