My Tragic Demise

I'm so fucking sick of this whole fucking life
Of all of this shit
Of all this fucking strife
Just kill me now, I'm begging you
I've been through all this, through and through

I'm puking up blood and I'm puking up shit
My heart is thumping
I'm passed the end of my wit
All you do is sit there and stare
I'm sitting here dying and you don't even care

I'm laying here swearing and I'm laying here crying
But I'm not making any sound
And yet I'm still trying
But there's no thoughts in my head
I think that I'm dead, I think that I'm dead

-Alisha

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If only if only you could know
How much I wanted this to be
Would you still have been so rude?
Would you still not have cared to hurt me?

I've learned just one thing
From all this life that I have had
If I want something to happen
It won't, don't matter if I want it really bad

I hate how in books they will say
"If this was a book, this wouldn't occur"
But then it does
And they thank the lord

So perhaps that's why I don't believe
In anything unordinary
There's no reason that I should
So religion I will bury

But here's something that's quite strange
I'll state it in this verse
If a coincidence does happen,
It's always for the worse.

Maybe it's just 'cause
I have no given luck
And if that's true then it's no wonder
That my life really sucks.

-Kara (And I know that this poem also sucks, but I couldn't really come up with anything better that the moment)

Things to be forgotten.

I’m scared ill be forgotten
I’m scared ill fade away
I’m scared ill be erased
In your hearts and minds
Like I wasn’t there
Without a trace

If I am forgotten
While my life is over,
My soul will be lost
In this world.
Looking for someone to remember
The person I once was
The person who was your friend

Over the years
No matter how hard people try [to remember]
They always forget
You might think you’ll never forget me
Days will go by with thoughts of me
Over time you will think of me less and less
And that’s when my heart
Is like it truly never exists

~Judy

Music Fades

Whatever happened
To that magical feeling?
Indescribable
Unimaginable
It was
To feel
This way.
No longer
Do I feel anything for this song
Numbness has taken over
It’s what I hate more than anything else
In the world
I can’t stand how quickly it goes
It makes me sick
Drives me crazy.
It makes me
Feel.

-Kara

To Survive, You Need Water

When you’re feeling bluer
Than you ever thought you could be
What do you do?
You write poetry

So this is my song
Just lacking a tune
That’s brought on, no less
By a Sunday afternoon

Life is getting harder
To live in, to enjoy
I need it to have feeling
Or myself I will destroy

And this is a message
To all that are let down
“Live in the present
Stop messing around

This is your LIFE
Believe it or not.
It cannot be wasted
Though that happens a lot

So maybe you should
Try to turn it around
Let's all find adventure
Just follow the sound

'Cause lying in bed
Will just make you sick
Better leave while there's time
Or here you will stick.”

Well I can't believe
How fast things have changed
Obsession’s slave, I am
Could it be more deranged?

The timing was then
The moment is now
If I'm gonna make it
I need to learn how

I'll plan for excitement
It'll take many years
But I won't waste time
With school, with careers

In the end it will work out
I feel it, I do
I'll find life in me yet
Then the world won't be so blue.

-Kara

Moon Song

It's a little cheesy, I know, and not my best work, but bare with me...

His Majesty moon
in his castle of kings
from July to June
this song he sings

let the stars be bright
let the sea be calm
let the velvet night
be dark and long

let me shine
from wax to wane
let me shine
in glorys flame

And if the sun
comes to rise
let me return
from my demise

Let the winter snow
dust the evergreen trees
and let the fall winds blow
and shake the fiery leaves

let the summer days be hot
and nights be cool
let the dogs have spots
let the children be fools

let the spring rains flow
let the wild flowers bloom
let the willow trees grow
let the thunder boon

let the children smile
let the adults give in
if just for a little while
let life begin

~Landis

The voices in my insomniatic head

I'm so exausted
from my sleep
I feel so alive
I think I'm dead
As I lie
Staring at the ceiling
I hear them calling
the voices in my head
the voices of reason
I wish to shut out
The speak to me
wise words
I don't understand
all of what they say
they tell me things
I've never heard
they speek of freedom
joy and light
they shout to find it
from the corners of my mind
So I go looking
for what I don't know
I see sorrow and pain
Hapiness, I do not find
yet still I search
I won't give up
I'll follow those voices
to the end of the earth

~Landis

Revolution

Walls and lines
that's all I see
fear and sameness
that's what we breathe

A fog has settled
in our minds
break out and fight
for all mankind

the patterns are not
easily read
they burn in our brains
until we're dead

But we can change it
you and I
trick the trickers
decieve the lie

Question Authority
Challeng what's right
break down the walls
stand and fight

there is no end
to this war we wage
for peace and love
are the key to the cage

A new hope
a dawn for man
learn from the battle
or repeat it again

It's all about losses and gains
in this world of mine
foes and enemies
and those you leave behind

~ Landis

The voices

The voices-

The voices stay inside my head
I cry in pain telling them to get out
Each day growing louder and louder
More voices coming in
I can’t stand it anymore
Please stop! Get out!

The voices stay inside my head
I don’t hear them all day
When I find myself alone, or sometimes just at random
That’s when they seem to love to come back
The voices scar my soul
Please PLEASE just get out!

The voices stay inside my head
I try to drown them out
The music, it purifies my soul
When I play music, it all goes away
The notes zoning me out into a whole new world
The world I wish was realThe world with peace. ~by Judy

The Inner Workings of Perfection

The weirdest thing I have known
Is when the truth is shown
And it's so far from what you thought
You didn't know what it was you got
Until that moment when the truth comes out
Things were good, but not enough to shout
Because they were great
But in this new state
Of knowing and finding what is so strange and new
And exactly what you thought you wouldn't like, too
You find these strange new feelings
Unlike any other dealings
You've had before now
And you're not really sure how
But things are greater than they were before
And he's exactly what you need for forever more
The opposite of what you thought
Is the dead shot
Of what you want, need, and now know
All the tangled messes you have sewn
Honestly just don't matter anymore
Unlike any time before
You KNOW for absolute
You can go ahead and shoot
You're in a place to far to reach
By no one can you be beseeched
To come down from this newfound place
Of such beauty and grace
Several spend their whole lives trying to find
This, but they don't know they first must bind
Their hopes and dreams and entire lives
To the one thing that truly revives
The one they love the most
And if in risen flames those things roast
You don't care because beside you
Is the one that's perfect for you too
And they are all that matters to you
Because the facts are straight and true
The two of you were made for each other
The perfection you just can't cover
They call you the perfect couple all the time
And before you just saw the signs
But now you know for sure
That you'll be in love forever more
With your soulmate
It was just fate
That brought you two together and then
When you discover the inner workings of them
And all the feelings are sudden and new
It was as if on cue
Your love multiplied by the thousands
And you feel justified and grand
To know that they're your baby
And maybe, just maybe
The rest of the world will someday find
Something as fine
As what the two of you share
And how much you care
And this is me and my baby
That is our true story
Our love's own true identy
Can't be compared to any quantity
And so this person beside me
No one can tear us apart really
Becase me and him, him and me
We are two halves of the same being

-Alisha 3/1/08

Happiness is a Warm Gun

She's not a girl who misses much
But please just don't touch
Her now, she's broken, just let her be
One breath of wind and in pieces she would be
But she needs someone to hold her tight
And tell her everything will be alright
Take her to a place where things aren't as tough
Trust me, she's had enough
This pain
It's just insane
She can't get up off the floor
She screms and cries until she just can't anymore
She screams until her lungs burst
This is the first
Time she's cried so hard
And her heart is marred
Beyond possible repair
But she knows that people still care
She's not a girl that misses much
Doo, doo, doo, doo, doo, doo, ohhh....
I need a fix a cause I'm goin down
Down to the pits that I left of town
I know no one can do me no harm
Cause happiness is a warm gun

-Alisha
(With some lyrics from Happiness is a Warm Gun by The Beatles)

fairy tail

Sometimes I dream of this story
My very own life fairy tail
I saw you one day and fell in love
I never thought that happiness could come
Ever so boldly I come up to you
A kiss on the lips
Everything turns out well
I hear wedding bells
“the end”

Fairy tails are happy
Too bad life isn’t like one
In real life my day isn’t so bright
Always a rain on my could
I see your smile
Makes me feel nothing could go wrong
A few seconds later I tell myself
Its not for me
It never will be
The end

Long Overdue, by judy

Long overdue

So long overdue
I said goodbye but never meant those words
Thinking thoughts inside my head
You moved on but not I instead
I said to you we would still be friends
That may not be a lie
But barely truth

I miss those days where we talked
Now days would go by and no words are said
I wonder if you think of me
I think of you every day
I know you don’t try that much
Its too much to think you do
That may be a lie
But barely the truth

Hit Me With Your best Shot- Just Make It Softer Then This One

This is not the night
That I turn off the light
Though this day's the worst I've ever had
I would laugh if someone said it wasn't so bad
But then again I don't know
If laughing is my foe
If I could actually laugh right now
Feels like I was hit with a snow plow
Am I in a coma
No, if I were I wouldn't smell that bitter aroma
Of my tears and pain mixed
If I were I'd feel that sweet bliss
Of release
Of increase
Of thoughtless retreat
That you can't beat
Better than feeling this pain
I don't like playing this game
I just gotta get out
I just gotta shout
I just gotta be free
Of this horror spree
Will my nightmare ever end
Will I ever be a decent friend
Will I stop hurting the people I love
Snap me out of it, please someone shove
Me until I break
My tears form a lake
The surface icy smooth
Til my tears fall again with the truth
I'm alone in the world
My fist is curled
Around the last shred of hope
With it I can maybe cope
Until I see him again
I want to go the coma place I've never been
And maybe I can just last
Past
All this mess in a full body cast
While
Feel the rising bile
In my throat
Give my heart a quick, shoddy coat
Of glue
So that I can stop feeling so blue
It won't work for very long
I don't feel very strong
I got kicked below the belt
Feelings I have never felt
But it was a kick that I had aimed
And I don't like to play this game
Even though I already knew
That I would get kicked even worse than you

- Alisha

What is Patriotic?

The bridges are burning
the stomachs are churning
as smoke fills the air
the world keeps turning
nobody's learning
nobody seems to care
the war is raging
the goverment is caging
the people to our empty heads
we're no longer growing
we're no longer thriving
soon enough we'll all be dead
the presidents not thinking
he stares with eyes unblinking
on the country that once was great
the tears are falling
the fire's not cooling
is this our fate?
the drums are banging
the orchestra is playing
the music is chaiotic
the mother is crying
for a freedom that's dieing
What is patriotic?

~Landis
2/27/08

Everyone's Child

time for bed child
let your eyes dry
time for bed child
no need to cry

rest your head child
no use to pry
but the hope is dead child
so why even try?

~Hope

Sleepy-Eyed Song

It's 1:33 in the middle of the night.
My heart is putting up a fight.
To sleep I need it to be silent
For this, I can really thank Rent
And now I'm getting thirsty
Cups of tears have just left me.
To happiness.
To making life a mess.
To all I love wrapped into one.
To having increasing amounts of fun.
How could this have happened again?
Music's a better obsession than men.
It's the last time, I've promised myself.
Yeah right. Trust is on a dusty shelf.
So what if I don't know when
To stop chewing on this pen.
Damn, I broke a bracket off again.
And I swear I'll never sleep again.
I know I'll never love again.
Except I never have, you see.
So let's fuck living. Woe is me.
This poem might not be my best
'Cause music makes up for lack of rest.
But I'm feeling way too much this time.
So I'll put it all down in rhyme.
Now I'm thinking 'bout all I haven't done.
The worry will come with the sun.
I wish I could play my guitar.
But sleeping parents aren't far.
So here I gaze out the window sill
Every living, loving thing wants to hide
It makes me really sick inside

-Kara

If Living Doesn't Kill You

If I believed in God
Or anything at all
I'd know he was against me
"It's fake," I'd think. "His call."

If I'm going insane
Which I must be, more and more
It doesn't make no sense
That I feel more alive than ever

If I was left out in the cold
At this hour, it wouldn't be so bad
As long as there was love there
It'd be the best I ever had.

If tears come from inside you
I must be running out
Ain't never drank no water
But it's a silent way to shout.

If wanting just means nothing
And living's all you got
There's no hope for the deserving
Desire has become forgot

-Kara

Life's Woes Can Rhyme

I think this might be hard
To write this all in rhyme
But I'll write every word
At least I'll say I tried:

1. You are pretty great
I owe you my life
Though we occasionally debate
There isn't too much strife

2. You too are pretty fab
I like how you make me laugh
Without you life would get pretty drab
You're like my friendship other half

3. You frustrate me so much
You act like you're my friend
But then when it suits you such
You make fun when you should defend

4. Sometimes I think you're mad at me
Then I think about how I don't know
If you can actually feel
If that face you wear is just a lie you've sewn

5. You are so confused
You mind's all blood and bruise
But trust me I've been in your shoes
Sometimes you forget who you really are, that I am you

6. Love is a great thing
It comes at your time of need
All the great things it can bring
But try not to forget other things, I've done this indeed

7. What happens when you want to die
What happens when you've done bad things
What happens when you want to cry
I'm sorry about the terror to you I bring

8. Fall hard
Give all you've got to give
Act like a retard
But don't be afraid to live

9. I really, really love you
Though I forget to be nice to you sometimes
You bring out my maternal instinct too
You're my baby and you're the only one who acts without lines

10. Most of you can figure out who I am
The one who appears to write the least
My cover is a sham
I'm the one who's internally a beast

- Anonymously Again

Tales from a Broken Heart

Winter is blue
The darkest thing you ever knew
It makes you want to stay inside
There's every reason you should hide

You drape yourself in heavy clothes
And rewatch all those boring shows
So put your boots on one by one
In hopes of soaking up some sun

Out the door you drag your feet
You start to stroll on down the street
Mabye this won't turn out so bad
You think, to stop from feeling sad

Just when you've got a glowing strut
Your brain remembers your warm hut
No more are you feeling so tall
On ice you slip and down you fall

Discouraged, slowly heading home
No longer on these streets you roam
And when you've arrived do you see
Kids frolicking, fun and free

Back inside your broken house
You feel as helpless as a mouse
As you wander down the hall
You never should have left at all

-Kara