How to be dead alive (this may be changed, I don't really like it.)

You tell me to stop raising my voice
It's not like I want too
You just don't give me the choice
You never listened to anything I said
I may as well talk to the walls
There's such injustice in your phone calls
I'm first on your list
but you don't care about me at all
You never really got me
no one ever fully will
I don't cry over the milk
but merely the fact that I spilled
I love people who
aren't any good
No one comforts me
when I'm down
I'm too strong
but I wish that they would
But it's not about me
so just take it easy
it's not your fault
So I'll tell you the truth:
you never knew my secrets
it was all another ruse
another play
on the chessboard of life
But what I never knew
is that you played me too
So now I'm standing on thin ice
watching my friends fall through the cracks
And the smiles in my memory
like old photographs
seem more and more unreal
and of all the things for me to feel
I feel depressed
And the Irony of it all
is that if you'd ever been able to catch me
I would have never begun to fall.

Landis
10/17/08

"Please listen to me baby, it is all down to drugs. Atleast I remeber taking them and not alot else"

Since I'm all about breaking the rules...

I'm going to post my photography that inspired this poem. Why the hell not?

Catching Light

it slipped through his fingers

and now a year later

the feeling still lingers

He was my friend

but we lost it all

from different worlds

yet we both would fall

How could the light

be so unkind

as to slip thourgh our fingers

and stay in our minds

The girl in the window

shattered mirror
shattered truth
shattered lies
shattered youth

broken heart
broken light
broken feelings
broken sight

trodden hope
trodden path
trodden frown
trodden laugh

sunken eyes
sunken dreams
sunken hopes
or so it seems

-Landis.

So Far Gone

Open up the Window
Let the world see those eyes
The ones that saw nothing
And tilt them towards the skies.
But in the heart of darkness
You've seen everything
Just when life is silent
The birds begin to sing.
The tune pounds through your eardrums
Forcing you awake
Everything comes back so clear
You'll shiver, scream, and shake.
Tears will trickle downwards
Just so you can know
Why it is you can't be heard
Last chance before you go.
Swing right through the curtains
As that cold wind whips your face
Impelling you to realize
You need a faster pace.
Oh lift up you head, child
Let rain mix with your tears
Then march down the dirt road
Empty of your fears.
There’s no chance to suffer
For your vision comes up black
But even if it feels right,
Don’t try looking back.

-Kara